Friday, June 10, 2011

Re-run

family breadfruit tree, lonely in the night
darkness once again prevails over all mankind
outside, dad’s blue car shivers in the rain
and I stand there, outside of the silver fence, re-visiting pain
this is a re-run, time after time
such is the flip side of life
someone you love is always saying good-bye

male cousins cruising in the dark
absolute silence, dogs on strike, refusing to bark
taxis going to and fro with bright tail lights
radio stations static at midnight
it always ends – yours and mine
this is the ONLY flip side of life
somebody is always spilling tears and saying goodbye

a great man - dad

Master - Writer

My life is written by the hand of God.
characters well chosen to fit the story line
conflicts in place to mold the contemporary heroine
the suspense continues to build up
creating suspicion in the audience


My destiny is pre-arranged
and my ONLY purpose in life
is to fulfill what the master script writer
had already written for me
- the story protagonist.

Lumafale, Tamalii and self @ the Charge' de Affairs fale at Vailima

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Eye Opener

Me and Tuese @ Millenia Hotel



It’s funny…really, this time last month
with ALL my strength and knowledge
I found myself gasping for air
and struggling to keep my head above water
stressed over the simple things
such as lunch money and taxi fares
phone bills, water bills and cash powers
putting food on the table was a burden
waking up in the morning was a struggle
planning ahead was a painful lie
even smiling was hard work

Somehow I was doing something wrong
But what?
I took care of my family
I put food on the table
I pay the bills
I feed my nephews
I am guardian to my nieces
I clean the house
I wash the dishes
I teach the kids right from wrong
What could I have possibly been doing wrong?

And then….
God opened my eyes
And I now see myself in a very different light
I regretfully sigh at my sweat shed in vain
For I now see where I’ve been
And past mistakes are now obvious as light in the dark
Everything I did was right
But my heart was in the wrong place
My actions were well
But my trust was put on the wrong being
I now learn with a heavy heart
Of my self created stress

I have learned that I was a big fool
to put trust in man and not God
I was a fool to allow
my pride rule my heart
and dictate my thoughts
I was a fool to think
I have self made success
I was a fool to think individually
I was a fool to put faith in money and plans
countless days spent worrying about how I look
and blinded by the lies of the world
Now I look at the person I have become
and thank the LORD for touching my heart
my priorities are now in the right place
I am still poor as before
still just head above water as before
still working to pay off debt as before
still unsure of what tomorrow will bring
just like before, and yet……..
my mountain of problems seem small
my burdens light
my worries and stress washed away

This change, I assure you
is not because I got married
or work for a US agency
or read the bible
or stopped going to night clubs
or quit smoking
or that my mother told me so
It is simply because I have FULLY accepted
HIM as my GOD
And I have given him room
to work his miracles in my life

Friday, June 3, 2011

The person I was……..

I once was like a duck on water
my true struggles were masked with pretence
But today, with much confidence, I portray in true essence
the person I am inside

I once was like a candle in the wind
with beliefs and values washable like writing on sand.
But today I walk on this path I am on in humility, peace and love
my beliefs and values established firm and immovable like Everest

I once was a woman of the world
worshiping the world, easily distracted by bright lights, ruled by money
But today none of these have power over me
as I walk in the light I now see

My life was a jumbled – up mess,
it was broken
But the master engineer, with a light touch
gave it an overhaul and renewed my engine

Now, I no longer linger on earth without a purpose
I no longer go with the flow
I no longer follow in strangers’ footsteps
I no longer allow others to plan my future